放下，放不下

there's a heavy load on my mind, if i cant get it off, it will be there until i got an answer to it. i just cant learn to take things easily and that's why i had depression, and my "other half" made things worse for me. what and how, am i going to do now? how long must i wait till i get the answer? amituofo help me please!

my 13 dot d assistant...

being in the food business means u cant do without an assistant.
after 3 yrs of being in service, my able assistant quit and i had a hell time trying to find one as capable as her.
my recent one has a sour face and behaves rather childishly. she believed that nobody can take her place and that's why she 's so arrogant. always the same threat: i want to quit, u go and find another one. she forgot who's the boss. unfortunately, we really cant do without a helper.she was with us now for...3months, tn quit and tn join again after new yr and is now 3 months with us again. "13 dian" was nicknamed to her by uncle coffee.
just now had a call from her, saying she sprained her leg and might not be able to work tomorrow. when my dear told me the call from her, i can felt my heart dropping to the ground. i feared she might quit again. "fortunately", she's just calling to say she might have to be off 2morrow. but tomorrow is weekend! oh dear me... i need to be a superwoman again!
dear god..i just cant do without an assistant...amituofo...

"open eyes wide-wide" Ba jiu gimgim!

what title shall i put down here? later then, when i think of one....
The local place of interest that i want to go now:
1.   Cameron Highlands
2. Lembing and Panching Hill
3. Pulau Redang, Pulau Tioman, Pulau Perhentian...
by the way, my friends are going for mountain climbing in Lembing this coming Labour Day....sigh...
no hope of going along...
but I  promise myself; when all my daughters start working, then i wont care whether it's weekends or public holidays or whatever...I'll be sure to put aside my work and go off for HOLIDAY!!!!
Yeah!
but right now, I can only "open my eyes wide wide" and watch other people having their great times....
yes...so this shall be the theme of my post...

丰富的想象力

I always let my imagination runs wild, so much so that I rather "admire" myself for being so "creative"!!
Gimme a query and u'll never guess what i can come out with! Sometimes I thought myself to be a detective....like Sherlock Holmes...wakakaka... looking for clues...guessing...imagination running wild...
but very often I always jump to the wrong conclusion...><!!!

religions...buddhist or christian?

dajie said xiaogu wanted to join the christian....got a shock!
never knew that xiaogu made some christian friends...perhaps she's too lonely....
with mom- in-law gone, only her good for nothing (oops, too harsh) hubby, with face as black as a wok...still, she got her two precious baby...
like myself, when my daughters are still small, and had to take them to work, cos cannot afford nannies...
everyday after work, got to take care of everything, from household chores to bathing them...
when they attended primary, every night i'm the 陪读妈妈...
daytime working, nightime teacher...until late into the night for them to finish their homework....sometimes so tired that i fell asleep with my head on the table...
looking back at it then, i admired myself for being so 伟大><, maybe being young tn was an advantage...sometimes wonder how i went thru those times...不堪回首！somemore with my hubby being a
male chauvinist p....

Martin Luther Kings

Behind every succussful man stands a woman.
It it wasnt been for Rosa Parks, who would have knew Martin LUther Kings?!...American renowned 民权斗士 was assassinated in 04-04-1968
Rosa Parks was a black woman. In thoses days, the blacks were lower class citizens. A black needed to give seat to a white while on a bus! But this Rosa Parks was put to jail because she refused to abide by the law, and this triggered off the fight for human rights . Martin was elected to represent the blacks.
The blacks united and boycott the bus. They would rather walked for 2 hrs to work and voiced their protest by upholding their campaign for as long as 382.
Finally, from history, we knew Martin won the case and was awarded the Nobel Prize, but was unfortunately assassinated in yr 1968.
United we stand, divided we fall!
Where in our country is our Martin Luther King?

bon vovage, my little one...

by now, u must still be at some thousand feet above sea level... aboard a plane on your way back to Taiwan.

Ive got used to it, or, at least I thought so...yesterday and even this morning, i feel alright。I supposed with the IT now so advance; on fb or phone call, or webcam...so handy... there's nothing to feel so  depressed.But, why was it that after work, on my way home, tears well up my eyes uncontrollably....so suddenly...
Dear, u must take care of urself, so as not to get me worried, take care of ur personal belongings too. You are already a big girl now, must have a sense of  responsibility...mom will think of a way not to miss u too much ><
:Just like before, whenever i started missing my babies, I will say to myself: : " IF YOU ARE HAPPY, SO AM I". 你快乐，所以我快乐....Love you...

Que Sera Sera..

my daughter present job is very simple, salary meagre and not much off day. hard to take leave too. So she went to interview another job. much to her amazement, she got what she had expected for her salary. tho stated negotiable, the manager din even bother to negotiate the salary with her and promised what she had written down in the resume. of cos she's delighted! but now she got butterflies in her stomach; she's afraid of  office politics.actually there are not many in the office, so i suppose there wont be any problem. Main thing is the job wont be as easy as the previous one. but the present job holds no future, whereas this job is more challenging and can learn more. dear, take the challenge and Go Ahead! Remember the song Que sera sera? what will be will be...the future not ours to see. be more responsible, persevering , take things at its stride... So dont u worry ur pretty head over this. 冲呀！ mom is with you!

gratefulness.....感恩

heard news that one monkey of mine had minor stroke, and later a major stroke! He was only 30++. I din know the rest of the story, cos i had this story told by my hubby, and he got this story from another person who had business relations with him.
End of March, one customer of mine suddenly passed away...暴毙！
1st of April, Aprilfool day, who could have played such a joke...another monkey passed away again!
All of them so young! just past 30 and 40!
from then on, before sleep and after waking up, 1st thing: BE GRATEFUL THAT WE ARE STILL ALIVE!
感恩我们还活着！